Monday, December 10, 2007

A huge rant!

Hi! Sorry about that last post! Could you tell I was frustrated?! I don't know why, but I have been so mad and depressed and upset lately, EVERYthing and ANYthing can set me on edge, my poor hubby gets his head bit off all the time. Basically it all comes down to the fact that I am a spoiled brat, and now I have to work and I don't like it! How dumb! It's life! I just had the most wonderful year of my life, I worked 2 hours a day and had the rest of the day free to do whatever the heck I wanted, I could read, stitch, bum around, do whatever,work on Homework, now my time is nil. I have NO time to do ANYTHING! and so, what I do when I don't have time is I cut my sleeping time! The first thing to go in my book is sleep! Which I guess makes me VERY grumpy!

Also the fact that I sat and wrote a nice long post last time and then when I went to post it the computer decided to freeze didn't help either. So, if I am short on here, that is why, basically I have no time, but I am trying to make time, so I cut alot of corners so I have time. I cannot wait until I can get rid of the stupid paper route!! Then I can actually get a good decent nights sleep, and still wake up early enough to feel as though I have a little life. Like last night I only got 6 hours of sleep. And my husband!!! I don't go to work until 12 in the afternoon, however, I won't get home until after 9 tonight, and so I made myself CRAWL out of bed at 8:00,and he can't understand why!!!! "You don't have to get up, you don't go to work until 12!" I have laundry to do and dishes and cleaning, and I would like some down time before I go have to deal with a million people in a HUGE noisy store all day, a little quiet would be nice! But I guess he wouldn't know, because guys don't do all that stuff, he gets home from work and relaxes sits and watches TV, and plays his games, I guess he thinks some magical elves come out of nowhere to make sure he has clean clothes, because by the way he was acting, he doesn't think I need to get up and get it done, plus, this is finals week, I have STUFF to do!

I am basically hating life right now, it wouldn't be so bad if I only had to go to the store and work but I have the route, and school on top of that, and taking care of hubby and house, and I thought I was stressed before, I am just over the top pissed off at the world right now.

Sorry about this sad post, it's just how I feel right now. When I get my paycheck I will be happy!

6 comments:

Michelle-ozark crafter said...

Oh sweetheart come here and let me give you a hug, a shoulder and a listening ear! I never liked working either when I had to. Always made me grouchy and sometimes plain mean! i prefer to be at home feathering my own nest. I didn't have to deal with people either like you do, that would have been to much! i always worked jobs where contact with people was nil or very little. Better for me! Probably for them too! LOL! What besides praying can I do to help you? Name it~

Sweet Pea said...

(((Lana)))

Ranae said...

Lana, I do hope you getting feeling better about everything.
I work at UPS how hectic is that right now? lol. Does that make you feel better?, lol
I am sure you are not the only person feeling like this right now, with the Hoidays sneaking upon us and the yucky weather all around.
Take care!!
(((hugs)))

stitcherw said...

I'm sorry things are so stressful for you right now, it does seem to be a bit overwhelming. Unfortunately when you don't get enough sleep on top of it, it is even harder to cope. Working all that time, continuing to do the route, and school sounds an exhausting schedule, and when you add all the rest of the stuff you still have to do at home... Hang in there and know we're here anytime you need to vent (and hopefully the computer won't freeze on you anymore, talk about adding insult to injury). {{hugs}}
Sue

Meari said...

Lana, it's unfortunate that things are so stressful right now. I do a lot of multi-tasking so I know how hectic it can get. I'm a single girl who just bought a home and everything that goes with it, plus I work full time, and go to school part time. If I were in your situation, I think I'd be having a talk with DH about helping out around the house to alleviate some of your stress. Good luck! (hugs)

Michelle said...

I hope it all eases up for you soon. It is so hard to handle work etc. when you are tired! Big hugs!